In Due Time...

Patience..its what they want me to have but its hard when im wantin more now then ive ever had..i get mad..at the pace, but in this race, against time, steady goes it, or else im jusss rushing to regret my past..i want it all..and thats the problem..aint no cheat sheet for success, if u want the answers, take the time to solve em..i get it..but with responsibilities, n ppl depending on me, I GOTTA GET IT..done wishin..im workin..my ambition is so relentless..word to Olu..trials n tribulations on this journey.. what real ppl go thru..so im growing, im learnin...becomin a better person while that fire inside me keeps burnin..cus time is too precious, not to capture the essence..appreciatin every moment, knowing that even my struggles are God's blessin.

Coco Loso

Cups of that Loso...I be pretendin when im sippin like it aint this feelin that im feelin..then that shit kick in...so i keep my cool, while admiring uuuu, i do that from a distance..i see u..they ask ya name, u reject those lames..they too persistent..i SEE u...imaginin u home with me, then gone by 3...i love those visions..lookin bad in her freak em dress..drunk m-e plus sexy u, equals lustful intentions..i walk over, hardly sober and excuse u from ur friends..small talkin n flirty gestures...we both know how THIS one ends.."save that"..i walk off like ive done this before and u cant help but wonder.."who is he? why he want me? I cant believe i gave em my number"...cups of that Loso..me n my crew in our section...me and u, we textin..wink faces.. cute phrases, u show the girls n ya section..u see me..the nights ending, and im done pretendin like gettin u wasnt the only mission..i ask u where u headed..walkin u back to ya crew i go the opposite direction..again, we textin.."i want u to kno this before we leave, u makin the wrong decision if u aint leavin with me"...u grab ya purse n phone from ya friend..she tell u "dont do it girl".. but u kno how u want it to end..taxi......my place..we there..n u STILL bad..i see u..done talkin cus of the time it takes up..got u sweatin off ya make up..sober days n drunk nights..i swear, this a life u cant make up..

Playa's Anthem

See..i told u let me hold u, even tho I knew i wasnt ready..u wanted me to find balance, i told u i wasnt steady..u tried to give me ur heart, i gave it back..too heavy..when we met, we connected...lust deposited, no love invested..i be nextin..i told u whats real, u took that as our potential..i told u i need my freedom, u asked "can i roll wit u?" the issue, that runs a lil deeper..u wanted me to believe in love..i do, i just aint eager..im with u..when im with u..u text me, ima hit u..just leave those feelings at the door, or bring em in with a box of tissue..see, i know my potential..AND i know what i want..so temporary affection is what i GIVE  long term love is what i FLAUNT..i give u lust and truth and let u take it how u take it..so if u accept that, i give u effort, and our time together is what you make it..chill..lets just get lost in out moment, let our physicals own it..i dig u, u dig me..fuck whoever AINT knowin..lets just let it be with a hug..and a kiss..but not on thOse  lips..u a pay to leave me alone but u kno im worth the trip..those catch 22's..i gave ur body butterflies while ur heart sang the blues..cus i told u let me hold u, even tho I knew i wasnt ready..u wanted me to find balance, i told u i wasnt steady..u tried to give me ur heart, i gave it back........it was too heavy

The feeling Is...

My heart is in a place where its been hardened by mistakes..It aint that i dont kno what it is, I..I just dont know what it isss..maybe its the invisible presence, or the intimidating essence.."I love you""...she waiting for a answer when all I got is questions..her heart burning, my eyes searchin..YEARNIN..See i been thru this befo, when they aint a hoe.. so i got a heart thats grown indifferent to watchin the good ones go..its fa the best..she dont know me, she just like the cool in me..the irony is im a walkin flaw but my confidence is the allure of me..i dont know myself..see when i give in i need to kno that she gon love me for my confidence as well as my insecurities..maybe she do..but see im fucked if she dont..by many women with intentions to get a piece of me that she wont..cus i'd rather leave, than to hang on to the what could be..all i am is potential..see, im caught in a time when my mind is blind and my soul cries..where my heart seeks refuge from the pain in my eyes..u see the issues..how could u love that? All I am is all that I am..and if thats what u want then im tryna be yo man..straight like that..The truth is,"I love you too"

Love Me Not..

I worry that in my pursuit of tryna show u what i deserve..i spent too much time givin u more than what u earned..tired of teaching my heart thru lessons learned with lovers that became friends, then strangers..see, thats just the danger, of movin too fast.. just so who i spend my present with can become someone from my past..im such a hypocrite..i would start lookin at her hips n shit n figure the bad intentions were just somethim we could get passed..the lust..its like, I love u..then, i hate u..i dislike knowing ur the only person I relate to..i miss u..but, i cant date u..wish u couldve been what i needed..instead of the reason the scent of love is distasteful..i think back to when we went WRONG and i LONG for a way to go BACK..to when the nights were long and postpone the right now which is a HAPPINESS i lack..was it worth it? i wanted to be more perfect than perfect..dont judge me..when u in love, u bound to go crazy n start thinkin some absurd shit..she wasnt ready, and i wasnt ready to let go..i ignored what was right for the right now and love is somethin i guess ill never kno..damn

The C Word

Life comes down to choices...That's it. No More, and certainly, No Less...WHat you choose to do with your life, what restaurants you go to, the friends you choose to spend time with and confide in, but MOST IMPORTANTLY..How you CHOOSE to think about yourself as a person...ONce you decide to think of yourself in a certain way, it embodies every thought, word spoken, and action you make..If you decide you want to be a professional dancer, youtube "Catdaddy'n 101"...But whatever you want to be, or however you see yourself, you better make sure it is someone who is CONFIDENT in themself...Confidence doesn't, or shouldn't come from the people you surround yourself with..Those people are merely the reinforcements of an inner and outer self that you already KNOW exists...That confidence can't be found in facebook message, DM's on Twitter from people that want a part of you..regardless of WHAT that part of you it is they want..Aaaaand it definitely should not be found in the bringing down of others..That only illuminates the insecurities you have that you hide in the shadows of yourself..the reason WHY CONFIDENCE shouldn't be found in these places is because they are all TEMPORARY...FRIENDS..most will come and go..and COMPLIMENTS are only as MEANINGFUL as the character of the person dishing em out...And if you think insulting others is the way to make yourself feel better, than you need more help than ANY blog can offer...CONFIDENCE is found in YOURSELF..In the little things about YOU that make YOU DIFFERENT from everybody else..those things that you consider WEIRD, are the unique characteristics that others WISH they had...CONFIDENCE is building yourself UP...showing yourself that you can be PRODUCTIVE, that you MEAN something to the PEOPLE in your life..TRUST...you will need confidence to make it in a world full of pessimists..where people want to see you SUCCEED...to a certain extent...that extent not extending past their success or happiness..BE AWARE..One thing some people don't like is someone who is noticeably confident in them self...not cocky..confident...WHY? It's intimidating..and to those with major insecurities, a confident person is scary..how DARE you BELIEVE in yourself or want and strive for HAPPINESS? I mean, who does that? Very few people in the world separate themselves from people who are simply not good enough for them..not in the sense that they are "better" than them, but in the sense of "I know my worth, and you don't value me the way I DESERVE to be valued." That goes for FRIENDSHIPS, RELATIONSHIPS, and BUSINESS..whatever you do, whoever you choose to surround yourself with, you FIRST have to be happy with yourself, and allow those situations and relationships to add to that..NOT bring you down, or more importantly, bring your self worth down..That's where confidence comes in.. In KNOWING who you are, because make no mistake about it, there will be people around you (and not around you) who try and bring you down..That's when you reflect..have a conversation with yourself and say, "self, who am I?" "WHat have my actions been?" "Where has my heart been in regards to making these choices?" If you know that you are doing what's right to the best of your ability, then you can sleep at night..god intentions+good actions=Good results..ALWAYS..maybe not immediately, but eventually..Everything that's negative from the situation are just people and their thoughts that have been subtracted..fear not, those who have bitterness can never judge you..only GOD can do that..sleep knowing you strive daily to be the best person you can be, PHYSICALLY, SPIRITUALLY, and EMOTIONALLY..that's the definition of SELF MADE...The other day, I received a hurtful message..that I had embarrassed this person..made them seem like they were a bad person..and that I had a lying problem..confused much? But I quickly reflected on how this situation came about and apologized for my part in the situation..no matter what situation your in, you always have a part in it..I deaded it, and moved on..Because I know who I am..Those CLOSEST to me do as well...I know where my heart lies (no pun intended, ha)..I know what my actions are, and most importantly, the power in my words...That's all that matters..Because you will be a million different people to different groups of people..but the only person that matters, is the one you strive to be..Take CONFIDENCE in KNOWING that...

"How could you judge me, unless you was me?"-HOV

The 5 second norm..

I see a future with you, where life is just beginnin..them others was just lust, this is love, cus I dont see an endin..My feelings not premature, im sure of it...Second date..me walkin you to the door, not even tryna hit...GENTLEMAN FLOW...early morning texts..."Goodmorninnn"..lets see where these sweets sentiments go...Me asking about ur life, vice versa..Tellin u them bruvas was lame, if I was them, i'd never hurt ya...Friends asking about dinner, you smiling and grinnin.."Just thinking bout you" text..We take it there, physically..Time passing, other women distractions..afraid of being another love casualty, u tell me u want more..I tell you I aint there, mentally...No matter my excuses, not enough of em to cover the bruises, on ya heart..I tell you I need space, we agree to take time apart..."Its just a break", how naive..I made you put ur heart on ya sleeve just to leave..the give n take.."Damn, did you get my message" text..got u smh'n and realizin another lesson..that us niggas aint shit..I loved u..I fucked u..I left u..In what felt like 5 seconds..